guilt

what do you do when you are feeling more guilty than usual?

i'm feeling very peculiar right now. i know i didn't do anything wrong, but essentially, i feel like a bad person. i don't understand why. i'm not going to get into my situation, though. basically, i just put off some homework assignments in order to do something i shouldn't be doing in the first place.

listening to music can make me feel more at ease. perhaps the beach boys? they have an upbeat tune. or maybe billy joel, his songs can be easily related to.


today i curled my hair. last night i was on a website where i asked anonymous posters whether they thought straight or curly hair was sexier. the answer was unanimous - curly. so, i followed the advice of my...colleagues, haha.
people always compliment me when i curl my hair. there is one girl, though, who has never complimented me. for four years we considered ourselves best friends but recently, we had an argument and i decided i didn't want to be forced to accompany myself with her because of a title such as 'bff'.
i know i'm pretty, but i also know i'm not supermodel stunning. she is pretty as well- she's very skinny and small, and she always held that against me; she is average looking. she still has all the confidence in the world, though, and seems to think that she should model. i feel bad that someone who is so conceited and nice looking, such as her, can't even make a comment like 'i like your hair'. she also won't feel happy for me when i come under the wave of good fortune. she is not a very nice person. i always complimented her. oh well, it's not a loss.
i'm never going to talk about her again on here.


i think i'm living proof that someone can be happy without a boyfriend or best friend. at one point i had both. i must admit that i still like my former boyfriend...not love anymore, though. and i already stated my opinion of my former best friend.
i still have people who love me, though. and i can keep myself busy by doing the things i love. i may be bored at times but i can always find something to do. i think my life is wonderful.




it's a wonderful life!






anyways, i burnt myself with the curling iron on my chest. it hurt for about 20 minutes, but then it was good again.


my goal for tomorrow is to do all my actions in the most simple way. tomorrow, simplicity will be key.